I have, for the first time in 5 years, free time. Both of my sons are sleeping soundly and consistently. We are into a fun routine that includes pre-school, sports and swimming as well as play dates and downtime.
They both are able to dress themselves (at their own speed), though they don’t! They can vocalize their needs and often times help themselves. And at the least, they can help me serve and prepare meals as I have put all of their dishes and cups at a height they can reach.
My wee lad is potty trained, and has recently started taking control of when he needs to use the toilet. Which means, I don’t need to remind him as often. He even takes his own pull-up off first thing in the morning!
They can access all of their toys and games, some select art supplies and books and magazines. The backyard is available to them. They play together most of the time in harmony ( I should whisper this, lest I jinx it).
This has brought about some new feelings for me. As a Mom, who doesn’t work outside of the home, I am not as depended on as I once was. My older son will be starting Kindergarten in a few weeks, further freeing up my time.
I will soon have 3 short mornings a week where my younger son will be in pre-school and 5 days a week where my older son will be in school. This is something I have looked forward to, however, now that it is upon me I am floundering.
What the hell am I going to do with all of this free time; all 12 hours a week?!?! I will most certainly want to volunteer at my sons school. I still love to exercise and workout. I love reading. But, I need a hobby. Or two.
I want to love gardening. But, honestly, I hate bugs and getting my hands dirty. I also want to be more crafty-but whenever I am presented with free time, I never feel like crafting. I also own a sewing machine and all of the sewing essentials. But, again…i never sew.
I have been reading a book, Women, Food and God. It keeps saying that once we give up our obsession with dieting and food, that we can focus on the real problems in our lives. She claims that if we focus on ourselves, that we will solve the emptiness that we so often fill with food.
Perhaps if I had some hobbies that I loved I wouldn’t feel the need to fill my voids with food?